Made Love Easy...

I was talking to very good friend last night and he began to talk to me about what Faith is. He summed it up in 2 words. Faith is "Unconditional love." It means trusting someone no matter what. It means sticking it out no matter the pain, sorrow, and anguish.

I thought about this all night and lying in my room it came to me that this too is love. I hear so many definitions and meanings of love and yet this one was so simple. "Unconditional Trust." Trust is such a huge part of love. You cant have love without trust. God loved us so much that he trusted us with each other. He trusted us despite the bondage of sin, despite the devil, despite the flesh, despite everything. He CHOSE us. He trusted us with the souls of everyone we walk by. I dont know about you but that is big to me. Im so humbled by it. God saw past my imperfectness and still chose to use me. He still chose to use you. He called you to love. And "Made Love Easy."

To be honest I am one who use to struggles with love. Love is scary. Love is giving yourself completely for the sake of others. Love is bearing pain when you are at the point where you are on your face and cant take anymore. Love is being there to stick it out when you are at your end. Love is learning to listen. Love is there with arms open to take soemone back even if they have burned you time after time. Love is trust. Love is loyalty. Love is unshakable. You are called to love my friends.

A good friend of mine told me once....Love is never leaving." And He never left...


Comparing myself to these things I am at the bottom of the scale.

But I am called to love. And I will love.

It Just takes time and devotion to the one who First loved us.

He made love easy.

And the devil danced over her...

Hey!

Another time of me sharing my heart through poetry. Enjoy!

Blue + Yellow = Green

-Donna



And the devil danced over her....


She just wanted it all to stop. She just wanted to be loved. Her heart ached from the pain and the tears seemed endless. And the devil danced over her.

The blade ran smoothly over her wrist. The blood was warm against her skin. On her knees she pushed deeper and harder. The blood poured from her arm. And the devil danced over her.

He placed the needle in his arm and slowly let the drug run free, Dancing thru his veins like fire. The tears flowed from his face. The pain was inescapable. The hurt unbearable. His body fell slowly to the floor. And the devil danced over him.

She put the last bottle to her lips. And the substance bit her throat as it poured into her body. Noone cared. Noone knew. Her pain was invisible and her voice muted. She was alone. And the devil danced over her.

I dont know your pain and I dont know your cry. But I know someone who does.

Is the devil danicing over you? ME? Did you drive the blade into your arm...or put the bottle to your lips?

Your pain runs deep. And His love runs deeper. Jesus was hung on the cross for your pain and your sorrow. He sees EVERY tear you cry. He knows EVERY ache you feel. Standing up seems impossible. Being lifted up is what HE will do.

Mark 10 :27
"No chance at all if you think you can pull it off by yourself. Every chance in the world if you let God do it."
The devil dances over your pain. God takes your pain. Its your decision.

What is Pain?

Hey guys,

I wrote this poem in April of 2007. I dont quite remember what I was going through but I do know this poem was the ending point of it. Its simple and straight from my heart.
I hope it speaks to you. Take care.

Blue + Yellow = Green

-Donna



What is pain?


Pain is only weakness leaving the body.

The flesh.

Pain only touches your spirit when the Healer is not present.

Pain is not feeling nails driven into your hand.

Pain is feeling the sins of the entire world.

Pain is not being spit on and beaten.

Pain is looking into the eyes of the one you are about to die for.

Pain is not being rejected in your own city.

Pain is being denied 3 times by one of your closest friend.

Pain is not wearing a crown of thorns.

Pain is watching your beloved walk away.

Pain is not being hung on a cross.

Pain is catching the tears of your daughters.

Pain is not driving a spear into his side.

Pain is watching the world slowly die.



Pain is weakness leaving the body. Let the pain go.

How alone we really are...

"Turn to me and be gracious, for I am lonely and afflicted."

Psalms 25:16

Sunday we had our Discipleship for youth group. We usually get together, pray and worship, and then go through a book. We just finished a book on Evangelism and were ready to start a book called Battlecry for our Generation, but ended up going through a book with a hundred questions teenagers frequently asked. We were asked to choose a topic and read what it said then give our own thoughts.

Prior to that time, I had been in a really bad mood and I had been feeling lonely that entire day. Imagine that! I felt lonely in church! Something was seriously wrong. We each took turns with the book and topics such as work, dreams, attitude, and Gods calling, were mentioned. My turn finally came and I drug my feet. I had carried a terrible attitude all day, but I still wanted to make sure I set an example. I was the only senior there that day and I wanted to at least encourage somebody, despite what I was going through.

I took the book and began to scan the list. It seemed endless even though it did have an end. I told myself Id find the easiest one, read it, and give some "churchy" response just so I could be done. God had a different plan. He put the word "lonely" before my eyes and I ended up choosing lonliness.

It was a convicting eye opener. My emotions for that entire day were summed in that one little section on lonliness. The book hit alot on calling on friends when we are lonely and yet I didnt feel like I could, simply because of my attitude. And the crazy thing is I was SO lonely I didnt want to be around ANYONE!

After reading the section I kept my head low, ashamed. Our youth pastor asked what it was I do when Im lonely. I thought about it and said I usually try to call on a friend, write or draw, or call on God. I remember thinking about the list I just rattled off and the order I had placed it in.

I had put God at the very end when in all reality He should have been the first thing I said. Not because its the best sounding answer, or its the "churchy spiritual" thing to say, but simply because He never leaves me!

The first part of that verse hit home with me. "Turn to me..." God had been right there with me that day more than ever because I WAS lonely. I knew in my heart He was there and all I simply needed to do was call on Him.

I know I struggle with lonliness to the full extent but I can honestly say that since that day and God speaking to me about it and helping me cope. I am truly NEVER alone. Who can be lonely with a promise like that???

Joshua 1:5 "...I will never leave you nor forsake you."

Blue + Yellow = Green

-Donna

Desperate?? Me too!!!

Graphic Design! Art! Writing!
Whats it gonna be?!?!?

Being a soon to be graduate, I'm bombarded with the ever so complicated yet often asked question " So what are you going to do with your life?"

I'm not really sure ya know? I don't know if Ill be a pilot, or a fireman, or a toe doctor! I SIMPLY DON'T KNOW YET!

I do know I have a never-ending gut punching desire and passion for art! I'm not the best and some of my real legit work always makes its way from my heart.

SO...how can I put forth that talent and passion to the one who created it and put it inside of me? I'm thinking by first acknowledging that it is HIS! Yes HIS! He is the foundation of art in itself! It all started with Him. Look at the sun, the moon, the stars! Its all of His work. All of His Ideas!

I find myself in awe that it all started inside of His head. All of it. I know that I don't have the brain capacity (or the attention span!) to one day wake up and create a ball of blazing fire no man can stand to look at let alone touch! And then name it "Sun." I just couldn't do it. But It fills me with awe and joy to know that I SERVE a God who can and did it!

If He can think up such a masterpiece and such a beautiful display of art that brings Glory to Him and His being, I know with out a doubt He can do the same thing in my life.

Sometimes I find myself so stressed out and so discouraged seeking out what God has in store for my life. I will pray until I'm blue in the face and yet still feel insignificant in what God has for me. I will look deep inside myself and think "Is there something missing? Something Im doing wrong?"

I have a hero (okay in all reality every ones my hero simply because of what they add to life) and she will tell you I call on her often Lol. I remember one time I was spilling that I just wanted to KNOW! what it was God wants me to do. I want a map, I want names, I want it all! She simply looked at me and said "Donna, don't quit when your done." I sat back and let that sink into me. It brought me back to the countless times I was on my face begging God for anything, just anything and in that moment I felt God looking down on me proud and beaming at how desperate I WAS for Him. He encouraged me and showed me that after that wed or sunday or youth convention or youth camp that I stood up without a word from Him, that I always ended up right back at His feet! And oh how proud He was!!!

At this point in my life I wake up each day with a new sense of encouragement and confidence that God has something incredible for my life and each time I am on my face seeking Him and desperately crying out to Him, He begins to add to that call.

I know sometimes we struggle with impatience and the unknown...but take it from my own life. Get desperate for just God Himself and I can just about guarantee He will not leave you empty handed. In fact! As you pray and seek Him out I encourage you to pray for the day when God decides to pour out His thoughts and Ideas on you that you are in a place where you can handle it! Its gonna be worth the wait!

Blue + Yellow = Green

In Gods love,
-Donna